darth_amer

so yeah it's been a while

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 22:31:09 GMT

I've put myself on a diet about a week ago, and lost 5 pounds already. I can usually never stick to a diet but in this case I'm going to make it happen. I want to weigh 105 again. Because I looked preportional. I'm short, so weighing 115 doesn't seem that much, there's nowhere for the weight to go but outward (in my thighs, stomach, ass, boobs.)I'm hoping I'm hoping that in losing weight, that my boobs will shrink as well. Somethig weird: I used to hate black coffee, but I've been drinking it for the past week. The thought of coffee with cream and sugar makes me sick. I've been having random waves of nausea throughout the day, as well. They really only last up to 30 minutes but it's a bit strange to say the least. Maybe something is wrong with my stomach. Or maybe it's the diet. I'll soon find out I suppose. I need to get some holiday shopping done even though I'm broke and when Evan looked at my car yesterday, he told me it's going to be expensive to fix. I don't know what to get him. I'll figure it out though, so it's not a big deal. I'm leaving work in a 1/2 hour to make it to the chiropractor in time for my appointment, then I'm heading to the mall (ick around this time of year) for my shopping. I have come to this realization over the past few weeks: I care about few people, and even fewer care about me.

long time

Mon, 12 Sep 2005 15:29:25 GMT

I haven't written on this thing in a long time it feels like. I've been keeping a private journal that I feel is more effective. Although there are a few things worth mentioning. I know every girl goes through getting their period late and freaks out. Well that's what I had last night because I was three days late. Mind you, that's not generally a long time, but since I'm never late, I thought it was necessary to worry. I didn't tell anyone because I didn't want to freak people out until there was something worth freaking out about, and I knew that I was probably over reacting and that everything was fine. Which it was, I got it this morning and it was a relief. That's probably why I was crying last night. Well, that among other things. It was sad really. I was writing in my journal and crying and couldn't think straight. I have so many worries that come and go. That's one of the reasons I'm trying to simplify my life. I'm hoping to get rid of the clutter. For the most part it's been working well, and then I had the panic last night. Anyway, Evan came over last night. We had a family dinner for my mother's birthday which is today. It was fun I suppose. I was in an awkward mood the whole night and didn't pinpoint it until the breakdown after I was alone in my room. But it's over now and all is well. I have class this morning at 12:30. It's my stupid Computers for Business Management classs. I don't even really understand why I'm taking it. I wouldn't want to assume it's a filler class. I think it might be a requirement for either my major or just a gen ed requirement. Then I plan on coming home and going to the gym for a bit and hopefully the stares will start to fade away or I'm going to have to pop a cap in someone's throat. Then I have a class tonight I believe at 5:30-8:15. It's History of Costume and Textile Development, aka lots of note taking, which should be interesting, so I'm not complaining. I'm actually looking forward to the class and this semester. Oh god, and another thing that really bothers me about myself is how angry and frustrated I get when I misplace something. If I can't find something, I flip the fuck out. I have no idea why. I suppose it's a reflection of the frustration I have with my lack of memory. I really need to work on that because this morning I misplaced something and I started freaking out. I'm going to blame it on the blood, however, and PMS. I think this semester, instead of me taking a class, one of my mother's students whose major is math is going to tutor me and help me catch up since I haven't taken math in two years, and even then, I wasn't exactly placed in a high level. Anyway that should be interesting, perhaps I will start remembering my previous knowledge (or lack there of) of mathematics. I hope so. It's really frustrating.

Nature Camp

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 22:14:20 GMT

I'm now a counselor at Nature Camp. It's the awesomest job of all time, ever. I love the kids, they are so cute. A few little girls always want to be with me. It's really adorable. Yeah, so I've only been working there for a week, but I absolutely love it.

And Evan brought me flowers last night when he came over. I've never had anyone do that, so I didn't know how to react really, and it was new for me but it made me almost cry. I'm so glad I met him. He's the best boyfriend ever. And he's got dumps like a truck.

yeah. dumps like a truck.

sorry for the mushy gushy.

xo

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 14:50:54 GMT

I don't have too many specific events to write about, but I have been really content with the way things have been unfolding for me lately. I am, for the most part, happy with myself and my decisions. I found myself a special someone named Evan and he is awesome. It's been hard to trust men since roughly 6 months ago, but I'm working on it. I really need to.

Yesterday he and I went to see gold mind squad at recher, and stopped by tia's apartment before hand. Her place looks really settled in. I'm happy for her. Amanda was helping her put together a book shelf.... okay enough rambling. The point is I am really happy for Tia, and she deserves to be happy.

I haven't seen my dad in a while and sort of miss him. He's been calling me and I assume he wants to see me/ catch up/ whatever. I really should go spend some time with him. He wants Evan and I to go to his house for dinner or something. He's cute. I'm supposed to sleep at his house and watch the animals while he's gone on Thursday night and Friday night. It will be really lonely. Maybe it will give me some time to self reflect. I haven't done that in a while.

I'm nervous for school to start back up again, and excited. I'm taking Intro to Costume Design and Textiles, and Flat Pattern design. It should work out well I hope, but they will be really tough classes, especially flat pattern design. This semester, I won't be taking any of my classes at ccbc anymore. Now I'm just a student of bccc. Hopefully my boss will be more flfexible with my hours since I will be really busy with school.

P.S. Chris is back home for 15 days. I hope I get to see him.

xoxo

I can't breathe

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 16:46:47 GMT

Maybe it's all the deleriousness caused by being sick for the past few days, because I am sooo out of it. I have had absolutely the worst headache and sore throat and a pretty decent temperature and it really is no fun at all. Yesterday, I decided to venture out and drive to Barbie's house, which I did and it was so much fun seeing her. i haven't seen her since she left for Italy, and she just got back a few weeks ago. Yeah but spending time with her was awesome. We cought up and chit chatted over drinks from glasZ café. It was really nice. I got the RIZE soundtrack today and I'm so in love. I'm like a walking promotion for the movie and my mother and I have been trying to dance like them. Anyway, I am headed out to the doctors because what the fuck is wrong with me? I don't know. I can't even sleep. Fuck.

Bye. <33

oh, and I miss my cousin kaitlin. yeah.

RIZE

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 15:26:26 GMT

Last night was really amazing. I saw Rize which was so fucking amazing. I love documentaries, I can't get enough. Of course, as always, I was moved and got a little bit teary eyed. That isn't anything new. I didn't get to see gold mind squad play either of their shows today because I was sick and had called out of work, and their second show was really far away. It's been way too long since I've made an appearance at one of those. Things have been going pretty steadily in my life and for once, I can count on myself being there for me. I have never been one to be able to be by myself, but as of 5-6 months ago, I have discovered that being by myself is not a bad thing. It only lets you better yourself and perfect (and by that I mean form opinions) your thoughts on certain things.

When you know yourself enough and depend on yourself, you can learn how to healthily depend on other people and not be overdramatic about it, or take advantage of their "being there for you" avbailabilities. There is only so much one can take. So now that I've been self reflecting for the past 5-6 months, I am ready to have someone by my side again. Although there were a few bumps in the road and a few wrong turns (not anyone else's fault but my own), I am slowly but steadily stepping back up to plate (.... easiest analogy to understand) and ready to form new friendships, and build (a) new relationship(s). The road has been seemingly long, but I am here now.

And now, I am going.

xo

CIRQUE DU SOLEIL

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 03:32:59 GMT

Today i went to see Cirque Du Soleil with Evan and it was absolutely incredible. I have always seen the videos of it and never thought I would see it LIVE!! But I did, and I almost peed myself. My face was lit up the entire time and I was so happy :) There were men flipping around on swings, propelling from men laying down, throwing, balancing, trapeze-like flying and gliding, contortionists, singing, lights, sparkling, costumes...... OH MY GOD it was a dream.

Today really made me smile.

♥

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 19:21:43 GMT

I talked to someone the other night who I really hadn't had a desire to talk to again. Somehow, yet another time, I've gotten cought in the middle of some petty ass fucking drama that reminds me of how 5th ang 6th graders would handle situations. Or could I go as far as to say that this person has purposely used my name in a way to get back at someone. That's really fucking lame. I wish to have nothing to do with your dramatic extravaganzas. All I ever do it stand there, and drama always seems to find me. Seriously. I don't do anything to piss off anyone, I don't do anything to anyone intentionally. I just sit back and observe the wonders of life when suddenly, I look up and I am the basis of a situation that I had no intention of being a part of, nor did I wish to know anything about. I am starting to believe that people have no lives or are really bored with the meaningless non-eventfulness that happen in theirs so they find a need to attempt to intrude on my happiness, or my well being. I don't give a shit. Leave me the fuck alone. I find myself naturally more drawn to guys, although the people I consistantly hang out with are girls. They aren't true girls, however. Not girls in cheesy dramatic Nickalodeon chick flicks starring Hillary Duff and Lindsay Lohan. Those kind of girls are real, right? That seems to be the nature in which most girls behave, so the movie's accuracy isn't that far off about how girls act in High School, etc. We are seriously almost 20 years old. If you don't like someone, big fucking deal, then leave them the fuck alone. That's what I do. You just leave them the fuck alone. Making silly and seemingly witty rebuttles in response to something you said or did that had nothing to do with the other person seems really immature. It shows that you fucking give a shit. I just wish that petty games and petty girls stay the fuck out of my life, because I stay the fuck out of theirs. Ladies and Gentleman, this is what Betrayal will do to you, so back the fuck off.

Sincerely,
Amy

Cirque Du Soleill

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 23:37:57 GMT

I am seeing cirque du soleill on sunday!!!!! yaya!!!!

other exciting things have happened.

and things not so exciting.

that's life.

i love everyone

<3333

so tonight

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 06:27:03 GMT

Was great fun. I went to the Inner Harbor with Ariel and Evan. Last night I went to a show at the something something art space. Shit I can't even remember what it's called. Fuck. Anyway, it was really hot, Tia and I were hungry, and we didn't want to walk to get food (bad neighborhood) so we just took my car, and got lost. Yeah that was kind of lame. We learned one lesson from getting lost in the city that night though, and that is there is more than one bridge in Baltimore City. Yeah. I have nothing really left to say, a lot on my mind the past few days but those things I can't put up here. It would probably cause drama or hurt feelings. I am going to get ready for bed now since it is 2:32 am and I'm really exhausted.

Goodnight all.

xol

gtjirodshrtkyjn

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 05:42:15 GMT

I haven't written in a few days. I haven't had the time. I can't remember a lot of things I've done in the past few days simply because I was too busy doing them and being cought in the moment. I also have a really hard time remembering things I've done one day before. That's lame. This I know.

I would like to take the time right now to thank Jenna. I had a problem today, and she offered her help in a way that not many of my friends would do given that situation. Fortunately, her help wasn't needed, but still. Jenna has proven time and time again to be a noble human being and a loyal and amazing friend. I was thinking about Julia today, and i almost started to cry. I haven't cried in a while thinking about her. I try not to. I would much rather think about her and laugh or smile or feel nice about life. I don't want to associate her name or memory with sadness and tears. I have mourned her loss, and now am at the point where I feel I can accept it and let her go. I love her too much to hold on to her like that.

I saw my step brother Zack today. I haven't seen him in a few weeks. I talked to him for a little bit. He recommended that I see the show 4400. He said it was amazing. I think i'll watch it next sunday, if I remember.

Last night I went to the Charles with Al to see Crash. It was a really good movie, and left me kind of in the "what the fuck?" mindframe when it was over. He really liked it. Then we walked to Pennsylvania Station. It was really cute. We sat and talked for a while, then he drove me through his "Tour of Baltimore." It was adorable. On Saturday night, Tia and I went to see this Dead Above Ground(?) show at the Mojo Lounge. It was very cool. I almost died. Yeah, but Tia and I made up this choreographed hardcore dance routine. We rule. Al and Josh were there, they helped us through our "first" hardcore show.

I miss my friends. I want to see them soon. I love everyone right now. Goodnight.

cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut !!!!!!!!!!

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 10:10:41 GMT

I can't fall asleep. It's 6:09 in the morning and I haven't slept yet. Today was fun, I hung out with Al. We went to Towson mall where we ran into Josh and Dik. Then I watched them practice later at Al's house. I really want to go to a show of theirs. Yeah. Yesterday I got my nosering changed to an 18 gage. Apparently when I got it pierced, they pierced it with a 20 gage which is illegal. DON'T GO TO STAR ROCKET ON MAINSTREET IN OLD ELLICOTT CITY. Yeah that's where I got mine done. Tomorrow I am hanging out with Mike and I really want to get a hoop for my nose since Dave sucks at remembering to give me my birthday present. Yeah. I cut my bangs again today and they are short now. Someone please stop me before I have no hair left. I really want to get my hair done again though. I want to get it shorter and I don't know. Maybe it would look weird. I painted my toenails and fingernails pink just now. I haven't painted them in such a long time. I am going to try and get some sleep. Oh and Sherye stole my sunglasses out of Kevin's car. Yeah she's a sunglass thief! I'll kill her <3

[lessthanthree]

-i'm so cool

priceless things and baby bood fird

Sun, 29 May 2005 20:24:00 GMT

The whole night, neither one of us could keep a straight face, due to the comment made about baby bood fird previously that day.

-Okay First, I pulled an illegal U Turn in the middle of the intersection, which was more or less a 3 point turn, wow.

-Then Mike and I went to Royal Farms for coffee and I asked the cashier where their bathroom was, and pointing to the sketchy "employees only" back room, he said, "back there" or something. ew. We left.

-Then we went to downtown annapolis, I've never been and it was so pretty. Saw some people smoking pot in their little boats, and some icky drunkness Good times.

-Chicken bird, Meat bird? yes.

-I thought these brass sculptures were real people. Real People! I was having problems all night.

-I wore a really baggy sweatshirt because it was cold. I looked like a thug. Nice.

-We drove to this Mcdonalds and we were going to ask them if they had any baby bood fird left over from "tonigt" but neither of us did.

-Mike made me drive into a strange parking lot where we saw a dancing and singing Elvis in the window of this little white barn. yeah. that was the highlight of the evening.

-Then we watch ladder 49 where I proceed to fall asleep and apparently wake up and look at mike and say, "why are you looking at me?" or "I can see you looking at me." I remember none of that.

-Driving home at past 6am and getting pulled over because I was falling asleep at the wheel and trying to speed to get there faster. Yeah.

Last night/today was really fun and random. Now how do I tell my parents I got a speeding ticket? Shit.

We get up at 12 and start to work at 1. Take an hour for lunch, and then at 2 we're done

Sat, 28 May 2005 22:00:59 GMT

HA HA HA, HO HO HO and a couple of la-dee-da's. That's how we work the day away in the very old land of OZ.

I think green and gold are my new favorite colors. That is surprisingly not weird to say, since my entire life I've always loved pink. Then again I used to have long blonde hair to go perfectly with my barbie look. Ew. Anyway, I worked today from 10-3. Got my paycheck. I really want to get a second job for the summer so I can make some money and give everyone money back that I owe money to. Ha! I went tanning today after work. I smell like burnt perfume from the lotion. I used the hawaiian bed. More like Mexican bed. I am dark! I could totally buy one of those shirts.... "Everyone loves a Latin girl" or something. Yeah.

I am going on a diet I have decided. Not to lose weight as much as it would be to shrink my boobs. I don't want them in the fucking way anymore and momma won't let me get reductions. what the fuck. Okay so I took some new myspace pictures the other night and they are fucking lame as shit. yeah, really. I was making faces in them, not being serious. I took them because I cut my bangs. Someone better stop me before I cut my bangs way too short one day. It's so fucking addicting. Shit.

I haven't seen or talked to Kevin in a while, maybe we will take a daring trip to Har-Co and eat at the WAFFLE HOUSE. God that was funny. I wish they had one of those around here. I think I am going to buy a new nose ring tonight, so I can eventually change it to a hoop. Hopefully soon. I really want one.

I'm gonna go do that now, I think.
I got fucking 4 hours of sleep last night thanks to a certain someone. HA! Just kidding. I had a really good night last night, minus a few minor details. I love my Tia. I love snuggles. Yep.

and this is for Sherye- I FUCKING LOVE THE HAIR CLIPS YOU MADE ME. SO ADDICTED. <3

I will write more later or tomorrow. I am going to try and get this nose ring thing situated. Loves.

and she said 4:39 oclock

Fri, 27 May 2005 08:42:50 GMT

It's somewhere between late at night and early in the morning. It's twenty minutes until 5:00am. The birds are chirping. Today was good. I hung out with Al for a bit before he went to work, then Kristin and I went to Columbia mall and went to visit both my sister and Al at work. We went our separate paths, I went home and took a shower, took some new myspace pictures with the bangs I had just altered myself minutes before. (Dane thinks I look like Cleopatra now.) I hope they are liked or I will cry. Not really. I love them so what, yeah. Yeah so I think my love of my life, aka Jenna is mad at me. I don't want to go into detail with that. I love Jenna. I think It's been too long since I've seen her. What the fuck is that about? I will go kidnap that cute little fucker. Tomorrow I am supposed to hang out with Tia and Rob. It shall be fun. No ideas about what we are doing though. I'm broke so hopefully nothing that has to do with money. Yeah that would be great.

I am getting really tired, so I will write more tomorrow if I feel like it.

Thu, 26 May 2005 18:10:34 GMT

Yesterday I went to Tia's house to run some errands. We went to Essex Community College so she could do some paper work or something. We went to Towson mall because I wanted to get shoes for work. I ended up getting a Gold belt and I'm in love. We ate at Panera (as always) and The day with her was really fun. Then I left, went home, Adam came over and we looked at the pictures from the shoot, I picked out the ones I wanted printed and hopefully I will get them soon. I really love the ones I am getting printed. I went to Columbia mall to Nordstrom because I'm rediculious when it comes to shoes. I bought these really fucking cute gold sequeny slip on shoes that have a hemp-like bottom. Went to the Towson Diner last night with Al and (thank god that waiter wasnt there, who asked me for my number sophmore year.) I got a greek salad and it was yum except there was this fish stuff on it that made certain parts of the salad taste really yucky and fishy. We walked around towson and it was a bit cold but really nice. We walked to Tia's house and she wasn't home. Watched a movie, then parted ways.

Today I think I am buying another cd. No idea which one yet. I really need to go tanning, so maybe I'll take care of that today. There is so much stuff I need to do. I'll make a list.

1. Get clothes for work
2. Get Boo Boo Zap
3. Saturday staying over at my dad's house to watch the animals while he's away till sunday.
4. Make a list of food for the house
5. More things I can't remember right now.

The end.

P.S.- I saw Jodi Prince at Towson diner. I miss her!! She is so fucking adorable.

not if anything to do with it, I have...

Tue, 24 May 2005 16:38:05 GMT

I saw star wars!! It was actually very good minus the cheesy sci fi acting. Apparently I snorted many times like a little pig. There were some funny parts and Yoda is definitely the cutest thing ever. Wright made up a dance called "the dark side" and it was cute when he busted it out whenever they mentioned it in the movie. Right now I am at work and Dr. George is doing an examination in the other room and I am supposed to be entering patients information into the computer. Ohh so much fun! Last night I went out with Al and we drove around pretty much the whole time. We went to... shit I can't remember the name of it. Some lake that had all these restaraunts on this pier and a walking trail. It was sooo pretty and my hair frizzed like a mother fucker. We watched Spanglish (which my mother told me I would cry during, and I didn't.) I missed some parts of the movie perhaps because it was late and I was falling asleep on the fold out couch. I bought an iced latte and bagel with veggie cream cheese this morning along with the Funeral for a Friend cd and I love it. Just heard them for the first time last night and yeah. I'm cool. Yeah and our waitress last night, her voice was really high pitched I almost laughed right in her face. I felt bad. Sorry.

Adam and I had our photoshoot on Sunday and it went well I think. I really hope I don't look fat in the pictures. I am kind of anxious about that. I haven't seen Jenna since Thursday and I really miss her already. I love that girl! I sometimes feel hesitant to start a relationship and I tend to feel rejected quite easily. I guess that's what happens when you get cheated on. I hate writing about that, he doesn't deserve it. And why can't guys just tell you if they like you or not? Seriously. Truth please. Thanks.

I have to go on a lunch run, cause I'm the lunch bitch. I will write more later.

that green stuff..... burned your fucking eyeballs

Fri, 20 May 2005 00:08:07 GMT

I had a dream last night that Tia and I were out and about and we started getting attacked. Then I started getting date raped, or at least this man was trying to, and this went on and on while Tia was being attacked. All of a sudden, sushi came out of nowhere, and that green stuff that you put on it.... wassabe? I put it on my thumbs and shoved my thumbs in his eyes. The end.

Also I Aced my final today, and probably failed the other one. Yup.

MY BIRTHDAY

Tue, 17 May 2005 06:45:18 GMT

I am really glad that finally I had a great birthday. It's been a really long time since I've had this much fun. The beginning of the day didn't start off too well, I had to wake up kind of early and take two finals, but since the first one ran too long, I missed the second one, had to email my teacher explaining that I didn't just "dip out." Since I missed the second final, David took me to subway for lunch. Then I walked outside and I had a flat tire and had to take it up the street to get it fixed and whatnot. I thought my day was doomed, obviously.

Ariel called me and came over and we went to Fletcher's at Noise in the Basement to see Jealousy Curve since my mom and sister were taping them. They were absolutely amazing. Love them. The lead singer Michael (?) can really sing. He hit every single note. During their set, I look over at Ariel and tell her, "I really want them to play that song I love. I can't remember what it's called though. I'll let you know which one it is, if they play it." Not even two seconds later (and I had only met these guys about 30 minutes before their set,) Michael (?) goes, "This song goes out to our new friend, Amy. It's her 19th birthday today. She's the cutie patutey (?) with the pink skirt." And thank god there weren't sooo many people there, because I was already embarassed. I was happy though. Nobody has ever done that for me, and it was really sweet. Then after they started wrapping up their set, before they played their last song, he said something about my birthday again. It was really cute. I blushed and was embarassed. That never happens. I rarely blush/ get embarassed.

After the show, Ariel and Kevin and I go on a conquest looking for my car. To say the least, we took the long way finding it. Then we went to Friday's with all my friends since middle school. Kristin, Tia, Ani, and Jenna was there. It was really awesome. Sherye was there, Stagg, Kevin, Evan, Rooobyn, and my sister, Lindsey. Sherye made me these really cute hair clips out of bobby pins. Umm way cute. Kevin got me the Michael Jackson DVD and Billy Idol's greatest hits since I missed him at HFS. Tia got me a car CD case thing, the kind with 4 CD's on a page. OMG i needed that soo bad, and Lip gloss. Lindsey got me two belly button rings and two pairs of sunglasses, and My mom gave me money and a gift certificate to this tanning place by my house called Jamaican Me Tan. Best place ever. My step dad, Ira got me a gift card to Panera (same as last year) and I love Panera. Yeah. The night was really fun and I'm glad I got to spend it with the people I care about most.

So, thank you to everyone who made my birthday extra special ! And for all the people that texted me "happy birthday" throughout the day.

I love you all.

<33

5.

Fri, 13 May 2005 06:28:51 GMT

I developed a new addiction for queer as folk. I love it. Yesterday I went to Bean Hollow with Noah and Kristin and Tia. Noah's friend Adam was there. We met him. It was cool. We hung out with him later that night in Ellicott City. Things are fun. Today I went to work from 10-4:30 and got paid. I love this job. Then I went to Kristin's house and picked her up. We went to Centenial Park in Columbia because she works there. We walked to the "dam" in the park and we watched the sun set. We both, unstoppably cried. Her more so than me though. It was very emotional. Maybe one day I will have someone to watch the sun set with.

And my birthday is on Monday. No clue what I'm doing for it. Pretty lame.

Done.

My first mother's day as a mama

Mon, 09 May 2005 04:53:15 GMT

Since I don't know how to add more writing onto my previous entry, I have to start a new one. I fear that this new thing called Livejournal will be really addicting. Just what I need, another internet addiction.

Today, since my mom and sister ditched me to go to new york and go to museums, I went with Tia, and brought Carson along to Old Ellicott City. It was so pretty, and everyone was walking around with their mothers to go to lunch/dinner. I walked around for a while with them both and we went to a bunch of stores, all of which, let me carry carson inside. So Paris Hilton, everyone says. Most of the stores there are dog friendly so it was really cool to take him with me. He was getting so much attention it was rediculious, and Tia and I were getting hit on right and left because of it.

Anyway, all day, Tia was making fun of me because my mom blew me off and went to new york. That was lame, but kind of funny. We got the best crab artichoke dip from Ellicott City Mills Brewery. It was so good. We ate it on the front steps of the restaurant because we couldn't bring Carson inside with us. Then we went to The Candy Box which was (thank god) finally serving ice cream again since it's the season. I gave carson some ice cream, and some bread from the crab dip. He was really spoiled today. Really really spoiled. But he's allowed to be since he's so cute it makes you want to pull an Elmira on his ass.

Tomorrow I have to write a 5 page essay and a presentation board due on Tuesday. I hate Health class.

I'm watching Alfie and going to bed. It reminds me that I was betrayed by the one I love. It sucks. Goodnight all.

Mother's day

Sun, 08 May 2005 17:13:12 GMT

My mother and sister are in New York today. They left me out on mothers day? yes. I am sad but will be spending today with Tia and perhaps go visit Mrs. Beth if Jenna calls me back. I went to Jenna's surprise 20th birthday party with Dan and Kevin on Friday night. I wonder if they are planning anything for my birthday Probably not. I figured I'd just invite everyone to Friday's and eat dinner and hang out or whatever.

So Jenna's party was really good but some guy was asking me why I wasn't drinking and it was really pissing me the fuck off. He wouldn't leave me alone until he got a reason as to why I wasn't going to be drinking. I've rarely experienced people interrigating me about my choice of that, but when it does happen, it really irritates me. Especially when later that night, the guy looked like he was about to puke from being disgustingly drunk. Ick I hate that feeling.

I went to the woods on Friday night before the party. We only stayed about a half an hour or something like that. I went with Kevin and Dan and hung out a little with wright. It was cool. They were making fun of how short I am and Dan told me my purse looked like his grandmother's couch. I haven't been to that place in over two years. It was so weird how many memories were brought back.

I'm sick of writing blogs on myspace. Bye.